LOOKING IN FROM THE OUTSIDE

A good friend of mine once said, "Life is NOT about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself."
Lately life has been hectic. Weeks consume themselves entirely, each day resembling the next and the next after that. Routine after routine. I take a second to breathe but humid air is strangling. Have you ever felt like you're watching your life from a window as if you're viewing a reality television show in which you're the audience; your opinions go unheard. How does one travel outside the realm of being a bystander in their own life? If life is about creation instead of discovery, is assuming the bystander role inclusive--in order to see where you're headed, you need to take a step back and address the problems. What I'm aware of at the moment: It's easier to be a bystander. It's easier to run away. The only downside to this approach is adapting to the inability to feel when all you really can feel is a numbing sensation--both physically, mentally, emotionally--and when you finally admit to yourself that feeling nothing at all is simply not enough, sometimes it's just too late.